So, i thought i would start a blog so everyone can read about mine and chadds rollercoaster of a ride through infertility...a little background first...we officially decided to try for a baby in October of 2007, a little over a year after marriage...i took my last birth control pill on halloween of that year, and after that we were sooo excited to see what the future would hold! boy did we get our hopes up waaaay too soon!
after a few months had gone by, i was having lots of problems with my cycles, and unfortunately my first doctor didnt do much about it and just kept upping the dosage on my clomid pills...well after about a year of nothing, we decided to switch to Dr. Sutliff...thank God we did!
I saw Sutliff in november of 2008 and was put on some new medication, metformin, to hopefully see if it would help with my cycles, along with the clomid...well a couple months went by and nothing new happened besides restoring my cycles to normal days...so we then decided to take the plunge emotionally and financially into shots...so now im on clomid, metformin, and repronex shots, and having ultrasounds on certain days
well january was nothing good, but then just as the end of february came, POOF, we were finally pregnant after over a year of trying! it was the best phone call of my life around the first of march when katy, our super wonderful reproductive endocrynologist called and gave me the news that according to the blood tests it was official! chadd came home for lunch just a few minutes after i got the phone call and i ran outstide and swung my arms around his neck while i was laughing and crying, and he of course knew exactly why! he had the biggest smile on his face!
anyways, after that all of my checkups were great, no sign of anything, and my pregnancy was going good...until one early morning around the first of may, i woke up with terrible cramps and a backache...after a few hours of pain we decided to go to the emergency room where they proceeded to tell me i had a urinary tract infection and everything was fine with the baby...but looking back now i think they were too scared to check for sure because they knew exactly what was happening, but they just decided to lie to me and tell me the baby was fine...
well two weeks later i had another checkup, and at this time i was 12 weeks, or so i thought...i had this terrible feeling as we pulled up to the clinic and told chadd i didnt want to go in because i had this feeling that something wasnt going to be right. well we go in and my mom meets us there because she thinks she is going to get to see her future grandchilds heartbeat for the first time...anyways i knew it wasnt good when they couldn't pick up the heartbeat on the moniter in the room, so we went to the ultrasound room and there on the moniter was our lifeless baby, just laying there, with no heartbeat anymore...it was honestly the worst feeling ive ever had in my entire life...you will never know what its like to lose a baby until you have actually been through it...even though our child was only 12 weeks old, it was the worst image in the entire world to see the tiny figure laying lifeless inside my body. we immediately went to the hospital for a D&C and after that it was pretty emotional for a few months....
so now here we are 8 months later and we have finally decided to go for an IUI (intra-uterine insemination)...we had the IUI done on January 14th, and for obvious reasons that i dont feel the need to go into, its also a failure...so anyways thats the jist of it, of course i didnt get too elaborate on the details because i would never finish! anyways we will see what happens in the next week or so and i will update then! thanks for reading